Posted by Derek Fekkes

Many of you have heard me talk about a several year long period I went through where, looking back, I was basically an agnostic. I questioned almost everything I believed about God, the Bible, and the church. It was a very dark, dead, and frustrating time. Below are the lyrics to a song I wrote during this time, that give a window into the nature of faith. For those with an uber-rational mind like mine that wants every question answered and every unknown figured out with 100% certainty before making a decision, these words speak to the relational aspect of Christianity that must never be divorced from the rational aspect of the faith.

How We Rise

There’s no arrival, but no denying
There’s something in you that is worth finding
There’s no completion with only reason

There’s no movement without believing
There’s more than these two eyes are seeing
By faith it’s finished, by faith we raise
By faith is every step alive…and this is how we rise

Careful in choosing, the claim that I’m making
But never moving is just as confusing
In this indecision I’m losing direction

The world and its wonders we all love to ponder
But safe are the borders in which we wander
We must venture onward, to where we don’t know
For beyond the lines we come alive…and this is how we rise

So a risk I will take and I’m letting it go
My need to be right and my fear of unknown
With a chance I’ll be wrong and a chance that I’ll fall
I’ll collapse in your arms, cause this is how we rise.